This blog started as an extension of my semi-regular journalling habit, which I’d found helpful in straightening my thoughts out. I’d usually turn to it when I was feeling most lost and dealing with self-doubt.
I decided to start publishing the posts because this whole project is about trying to reconnect. I’m happy to share this journey, wherever it leads, and if it helps or inspires anyone, which I think it may have done already, then that’s a good thing.
The past few days I have looked at ways of ‘promoting’ it. I’ve forced myself to make the blog more discoverable (by importing it to Medium) and have even managed to share on LinkedIn and Twitter. The thinking is that if I attract any kind of following, it could make negotiations, grant applications and funding easier in the future.
The problem is that, in order to feel comfortable with that self-promotion, I made the posts more polished. And that’s not the point here. It’s a thinking exercise, and I don’t want to censor my ‘negative’ thoughts, or things that don’t seem to fit a satisfying narrative.
Maybe when there’s something in place to promote, there will be a case for crowd-pleasing, useful, well-crafted content. But for now, while I try to figure things out, I need there to be a low production values and honest vibe.
I want to stick to this goal of blogging every day, but I also want the creative freedom to produce confusing content and half-baked ideas.
But I don’t want those ideas to be out of context.
So I think what I’ll do is always write, but not always publish. I’ll make some of the posts private. Maybe they’ll stay private forever, or maybe when there’s some momentum and there are people eager for the project to happen, I can open some of it to subscribers.
Plan to spend the rest of the day researching this ‘only for fans’ concept. I’m pretty sure it’s an original idea.
